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My Butterfly Moment

My butterfly moment has finally arrived. On Dec 10th I had my final major surgery that will complete my reconstruction process of my breast cancer fight. This has been a long journey (August 25, 2020 - December 10, 2021), and while there were times when it was outright hard - I would change this walk with God for anything! When I started, I didn’t think I was anchored enough but God reminded me that all I needed was faith the size of a mustard seed and that while I might not have as present with Him…He never left my side. In fact, unbeknownst to me, He had been preparing me for this very journey for years right under my nose - my amazing husband Louis C. Rutland III and my three heartbeats (Dilan Rutland, Jourdan Rutland and Taryn Rutland), my sister Michelle Anderson Metcalf moving back to Chicago, my brother John my parents, my village, my Sorors, my devotion village, my BGB sisters, my Ships, my BFFs, my Heartbeats, my pastors, my sisters and brothers from other mothers, my BMO family, my survivor network…He even used the pandemic so that I would know what it meant to only have Him in the room! This journey has been one for the books but I am glad to learn and live from it and walk boldly into my survivor space taking all that I learned and all who I love with me. I don’t wish cancer on anyone, especially myself, but because of it all, there is no doubt in my mind…I AM BLESSED! Yahweh…

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